"He would have been conscious this day and hour, in spite of his happiness, that he would bring you to misery, brng you down to sorrow and repentance, blight you, disgrace you, pull you down with him. I know very well that you can have no tenderness for, I ask for none, I am even thankful that it cannot be (pg. 156)"
When reading this passage, it struck me as an example of how one's lifestyle and choices become more than just a piece of one's individualism--but actually become the person in full. Mr. Carton is glad Lucie does not return his feelings because he believes who he is will drag her down, and that he cannot change. He is trapped, held captive, in his own toxicity. Now that his lifestyle is "conscious" he holds as an entity that is within himself, by referring to this consciousness as a "he" he is acknowledging that fact. He even goes as far as to say that, no matter how much he is pleased, the part of him that is a drunk or (quoting the back cover) "disreputable" will be there.
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